Monday, July 27, 2009

Turkey Burgers-WTF

So I am at Jen's house and her parents made turkey burgers for dinner. Who the HELL decided that making a burger out of turkey would be a good idea??? There were chunks in it that looked like corn, and it was just awful. As Jen said, they are enough to make you lose your appetite. I managed to force almost half of one down but we both ended up feeding the rest to the dog. How the dog managed to eat it is beyond me. I suggest if you like burgers you stay FAR away from these horrible posers that call themselves burgers.

Not to rant but what is wrong with people??? If you are goin gto eat a burger, eat the fatty, juicy, red meat kind. I am attempting to become a vegetarian by first cutting out red meat but good lord I would kill for a real burger right now. I can't believe I just forced that down my throat. UGH! BEWARE OF THE TURKEY BURGER!

Friday, July 24, 2009


I sit here while my wonderful boyfriend naps before leaving for a long night at work. As I sit here I listen to what sounds like a very large truck....but it is no truck you see, it is his snoring. Now I love him to death but I do not understand how snores that loud do not wake him up! He is adorable when he is sleeping quietly, which is not very often....

So this got me to wondering why people snore. The dictionary definition is: to breathe during sleep with hoarse or harsh sounds caused by the vibrating of the soft palate. Soooo why doesn't everyone snore? I am truly curious. I have been told I snore a little bit when I am overtired but really, every time I have been around him when he sleeps I feel as though ear plugs are needed!

If anyone has any insight whatsoever about snoring FILL ME IN! How do you make it go away? How do you sleep through it? Can it be taken care of before I smuggle him with a pillow???? Just kidding that last one is mean. But really, am I weird for wondering this or does anyone else have random thoughts like this?

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Change of Plans

So apparently CJ's car decided that it was not time for me to go home today. CJ woke me up at 5:15 AM to tell me I wasn't going anywhere. Oh I was sooo upset :) He fell asleep in no time but of course could I go back to sleep? Noooo, that would be too easy. So I stayed awake...from around 5:45, when the snoring began, to 2 o'clock. Yes, he slept until 2. So I sat, using the computer, forever.

When he finally did wake up, he was as silly as can be, which is always fun. We got dinner, Chinese, yummmm. We then wandered over to the dollar store, or whatever it is called. We were walking around looking at the stuff when I saw a bird, flying, around the store. Now, let me say, telling you I am terrified of birds is an understatement. So of course CJ took the opportunity to make me even more nervous by slowing down, looking around more, as I went on and on about how terrified I was. What a sweetie huh? Haha then we headed back to the apartment and hung out until it was time for him to leave for work.

Since I was not prepared to stay here for another few days, I am borrowing some of CJ's clothing to sleep in. I think his mom may appreciate this picture :D

(CJ wears this shirt far too often so I figured I should probably have a picture in it too :) haha)


Everyone always tells you from the time you start school that going to college is important. That it is not a smart move if you don't go. Well why, if it is so important, is it so expensive? Elementary, Middle, and High School were all free to go to except for the materials you need, so why not college too? Granted there are private schools, well college could work the same way. You can pay out your @$$ to go to a private college, but you should be able to attend public college for free.

Now I don't mean 100% free. Room and Board and meals are understandable, they need to be able to afford these things. But paying hundreds of dollars for book you are only going to use for one year? In high school we had to lug around books that we used for one year and we didn't have to pay a cent. It just does not make any sense.

Granted I am sure that it has a lot to do with taxes so free college will never happen because taxes are high enough, but it's okay to dream right? I am only going on about this because my first college payment is August 15(?) and its like $435 and I really don't have that kind of money to be paying every month. I mean really, I work at Dunkin Donuts making minimum wage...

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Oh Hormones Why Do You Hate Me?

So CJ just left for work and as soon as he walked out the door I burst into tears. Why you may ask? I DON'T KNOW! This is ridiculous, I don't get it, I really don't. I mean I'm sad that I am going home tomorrow but honestly? I don't usually break down until AFTER he leaves.

So really...I am going to have to make sure I don't watch any sad movies or listen to any sad songs because CLEARLY my hormones are getting a kick out of making me SUFFER!

Sooooo I think I shall go take some wonderful Midol, (it is basically God right now) and take a shower...but who knows??? Maybe I'll g
et upset over something else! Bahhh being a girl!

The Joys of Being a Woman

Why on Earth are women "blessed" with a wonderful "gift" every month?!?! I mean honestly, who thought it was a good idea to make us suffer through moodiness, pain, and suffering??? I tell ya, there must be a man somewhere giggling over us each and every month! Not falling asleep until 2 AM because of cramps is NOT my idea of a good time! Waking up every few hours because the Midol wore off is even worse! Then we have to deal with the boyfriends/husbands whining because we snap at them. Well EXCUSE ME but do YOU have to deal with this???

I suppose if I am going to rant about the unfairness of being a woman I should throw in pregnancy. Though I have not yet witnessed this, thank goodness since I am only 18, I am quite scared to. As joyous as it is in the end let's
be real. Gaining tons of weight, having a huge stomach bumping into things, bursting into tears over nothing, getting sick at the smell of foods you once loved? Ugh I am all set for now thank you very much. And through this 9 month process, the men get upset, they don't get what they want, they need to comfort us when we cry, or run when we are ready to kill them for doing this to us, and they think their life is rough! Then labor, oh lordy, pushing out a baby! Hello! OW! All the guys have to do is sit there and take our yelling, but that is SO much to ask for.

As I am sure my boyfriend will read this along with other guys, sorry but I have no sympathy for you haha! I am moody and in pain and I do not care what any of you have to say on this subject :)

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Why Geeks Make Good Boyfriends

** I did not write these, though they fit my life pretty well!

15 Reasons Geeks make Great Boyfriends

In the wide world of dating, there are many options. Do you go for the flashy guy with the smooth smile, or the dude in the corner typing away on his laptop? The following are reasons why I think my fellow females should pay more attention to the quiet geeks and nerds, and less attention to the flashy boys.

1.) While geeks and nerds may be awkward, they’re well-meaning 9 out of 10 times. That smooth dude with the sly grin and the spider hands? Wonder what HIS intentions are… plus, I’ve never had a geek guy not call me when he said he would. Score major points THERE.

2.) They’re useful. In this tech-savvy world, it’s great to have a b/f who can make your laptop, desktop, and just about anything else that plugs into a wall behave itself.

3.) They’re more romantic than they’re given credit for. Ok true, their idea of romance might be to make up a spiffy web-page with all the reasons why they love you, with links to pics of you and sonnets and such… but hey. It lasts longer than flowers, plus you can show your friends.

4.) Due to their neglected status, there are plenty to choose from. You like ‘em tall and slender? There are plenty of geeks/nerds who are. You like ‘em smaller with more meat on their bones? Got that too.

5.) They’ve got brains. Come on now, how can intelligence be a bad thing?

6.) Most are quite good at remembering dates. Like birthdates and such, especially if they know it’ll make you happy. Due again to their neglected status, they’re more attentive than guys who “have more options”. Plus, with all that down time without a steady girlfriend, they’ll likely have mental lists of all the things they’d love to do once they GOT a girlfriend.

7.) Sex. Yep. Sex. I’m not really familiar with this myself, but I’ve friends who’ve been intimate with geek guys and it’s raves all around. They say a virgin wrote the Kama Sutra… all that time thinking about sex, imagining sex, dreaming about sex, (they are male after all) coupled with a desire to make you happy? Use your imagination.

8.) They’re relatively low-maintenance. Most can be fueled on pizza, Twinkies and Mt Dew. No complicated dinners needed here, so if you’re not the best cook, eh. Can you order a pizza?

9.) Most frequent bars as often as slugs frequent salt mines. You won’t have to worry much about your geek guy getting his “groove” on with club hotties because, frankly, he’ll be too busy rooting around under his computer wondering where that spare cable went. You won’t have to worry about him flirting with other women because, 9 out of 10 times, he’ll zip right by them in a perfect b-line towards the nearest electronics store. I’ve seen this happen.
Me: “Eww. Victoria Secret’s Models… They’re so skinny. How is that feminine? You can see her ribs!”
Geek Guy: “ooooooo…”
Me: “Hey!” *notices he is staring lustfully towards the computer store*
Geek Guy: “What?”
Me: “Never mind…”

10.) Although he may not want to go to every outing with you, you can arrange swaps, as in, you’ll go to his Gamer Con dressed as an elf princess if he’ll take you to the ballet. Plus, if he doesn’t want to go someplace with you, you won’t have to worry much about what he’s up to. You’ll probably come home to find him asleep on his keyboard in a sea of Mt. Dew cans with code blinking from the screen. It’s ok. He’s used to this. Just toss a blanket over him and turn out the light.

11.) His friends aren’t jerks. I can’t stress this enough. You’ll more likely get “Omg! A GIRL!! Can I see?!” than “Hey hot stuff back that ass up here and let me get some grub on…” They’re awkward geeks too and will, 9 times out of 10, treat you with the utmost respect and, more than likely, a note of awe. A cute girl picked one of their clan to date? It could happen to them! Hope! Drag some of your single girlfriends over, open up a pack of Mt. Dew, crack open the DnD set and get working. Nothing impresses geek guys more than a girl who can hack-n-slash (well ok maybe if she can code… a geek can dream).

12.) They’re rarely if ever possessive. They trust you, so you can be yourself around them. You like to walk around the house in a ratty t-shirt for comfort? He won’t care. He does too! They won’t get pissy if you don’t wear make-up or don’t want to bother primping your hair. If you gain a few pounds, they won’t try their best to make you feel like crap.

13.) They’re usually very well educated. Physics majors and the like. See #5. You won’t have to listen to him blathering on about his car (ok maybe a little), he’ll have loads of other interesting things to talk about. Politics, world events, how much the chicken burgers down at the local place rock, so long as you douse them in hot sauce…

14.) You’ll almost never have to hear, “Yaw dawg whazzap!!” plop out of their mouths. Unless it’s in jest. They spell properly, use correct punctuation, and are able to tell the difference between the toilet and the floor. They almost never get “wasted”, so you won’t have to worry about coming home to find him and his friends passed out on the floor amidst a pile of beer bottles. Mt. Dew cans, perhaps…

15.) And the final reason why geeks and nerds make great boyfriends: They actually give a damn about you. Not how you look (though that’s a plus), not how skinny you are, not how much make-up you primp yourself up with, but they like you for you. That kind of thing lasts longer than “DaMN baby you got a fine ass!!!” Believe me

My Sister

My sisters name is Angela Rose Dubois. She is almost 11 years old and I can't remember the last time I saw her. She used to call me every day and say hi, but of course that changed. Her mother is not the best role model out there, in fact Angie and her little brother were taken away from her. I look at Angie's aunt's Myspace and see her picture and it is heart wrenching because I really want her to be a part of my life.
My dad and her mom were not together long, and there was...well.....a slight age difference. My dad went back to his old ways, she started in on those ways and ta da! Another broken family. My poor baby sister had to suffer through it as just a baby, which is probably a good thing.
I remember when her mom was pregnant with her, I had an OBSESSION with Titanic and I really wanted her to name the baby Rose (after the character Rose in Titanic). Well My dad and her mom were not really into that but they wanted me to feel included so the named her Angela Rose.

I miss my sister, I really truly do. I have her email address but I don't want to just email her. Wha
t's the sense in emailing an 11 year old? You can't have a fun conversation online. I hope someday I'll be able to be a part of her life...

Monday, July 20, 2009

This Made Me Cry

Anyone who has a heart, whether you support war or not, will cry after watching this....

Just For CJ

So my wonderful boyfriend, Mr. CJ Twomey, took a quick look at my blog the other day and was upset with what he saw. I had not put him on here and he was a very sad panda. So I will take the time to write about him for a bit. CJ and I have been dating almost 7 months now. After both being in not so healthy relationships, it was tough at first to break out of old ways and habits. Though we had a rocky start, we are both getting our lives on track....finally! We will both, hopefully, be attending college in the fall, which will be tough but hey, he already lives two states away! We have both grown up so much and changed so much over the past few months, and I would say for the better.

CJ came to my senior prom with me, and I could not have asked for a better time. From the moment everyone started getting ready to the very last dance, it was amazing. Us and a large group of friends went in a white hummer limo, which was pretty freaking sweet!

CJ also attended the most important swim meet I'll ever have; Senior Night. All the seniors got flowers and had their pictures taken with their parents. Well as I am sure everyone has figured out, I don't live with my parents so this was very hard for me. CJ and my friend "husband" Evan both stood by me and took my picture with me. It was so awesome to have such great support.

My family very much loves CJ as well. My aunt asked him for help with her AC the other day and he pretty much did it himself :) My brothers, though they do not know him well, remember him from his senior year as the kid who plays WoW and was a pirate!

So, though there is so much to say about Mr. Twomey, I think this will suffice for now. He is a wonderful boyfriend and has always been the best friend I could ever ask for.

Friday, July 17, 2009

Amazing Song

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I love this song because anyone can relate to it. It is special to me, I hope you like it!

A Day In The Life Of A Dunkin Donuts Employee

So I had to work this morning, from 8 to 12:30 and let me tell you something, the day definitely tried my patience. First of all, I was woken up at 4:30 this morning by the irritating voice of a coworker who shall remain nameless. This girl, I might add, has gone around begging people for hours and yet continues to call and say she can't cover for them. She wanted to know if I wanted to go in at 7. The past few days have been quite trying, so I have not gotten much sleep and I have not eaten too much, so after falling asleep at 2 to be awoken at 4:30, I was NOT a happy camper. As politely as I could I told her I would be unable to be there and of course got an attitude.

At 7:30 I was awoken by my dog, which is w
hat he does every morning so no big surprise. BUT instead of him just jumping on me then jumping off like he usually does, he decided it would be cute if he ran up and down my back a few times. Needless to say I did not feel too bad when I kicked him off of my bed. I managed to roll myself out of bed and stumble to the bathroom where of course I stubbed my toe. After a few choice words, I threw on my uniform and was on my way. On the way to work, we got to go by the wonderful smell of skunk, because a few nights ago a poor skunk got hit. As bad as I feel about the skunks untimely death, I did not appreciate the stink of it.

I walked into Dunkin Donuts, cautiousl
y because you never know who is going to be running where and if things are where they should, and saw that my boss was running the drive thru cash register. This is always frightening, you see, because she has very little patience and I could tell she was in a bad mood. So I tip toed behind her and took a breath and asked her what she wanted me to do. Next thing I knew I was having keys thrown at me. Time to count a drawer, because the boss lady could not do drive thru anymore.

I got set up in drive thru and instantly had a feeling that today's customers were going to be difficult. Sure enough, I was correct. Now this whole post is really because of one customer. She just could not be satisfied. First she wanted her iced tea in a hot cup, then she wanted different straws, then she wanted her muffin heated, then she wanted napkins, then we were taking too long. Well let me tell you, I just about lost it. When she was finally happy and left, a truck full of guys came..older guys....far too old to be looking at me...and lucky me! They decided I was the cutest thing they've ever seen. Ugh, I must say I have had quite enough of the older guys checking me out. I mean I know I am absolutely gorgeous but really now, CONTROL YOURSELVES!!!

Finally, I was informed that our paychecks were not in...just what every employee wants to hear. I hoped and prayed that they would come in soon and JUST as I was about to leave for the day they appeared!! I then saw how much it was for and nearly cried. Not enough for a girl who has to pay for college...

Well, I suppose that's enough of a rant for now. Give me some time and I am sure I will come up with more!!

Thursday, July 16, 2009

A Little Bit About Me

Soooo since I am making a blog I suppose I should have something about me. Haha makes sense huh? Where to start? Well, I live with my aunt because there were some issues with my parents that could no be resolved. It is unfortunate, but she has taken me in and given me everything that I need and has been an amazing support system. I love her and thank her more than words can express.

I have two little brothers who, though they don't know it, mean the absolute world to me. The youngest is Zach and the oldest is Jake. Though they are a pain in the butt, but when it came down to it, when I lived with them, they were always by my side. I miss them more than anything but I know that once they get older I will be able to see them more.

I also have a little sister named Angela. Unfortunately I do not have any pictures of her because I never see her. She lives with her mother who is a very bad influence and I hope someday I can be around my sister and help her through life.

So that's my family, for the most part. So let's talk about my activities shall we?
I was part of the ELHS swim team for 3 years, because I gave up cheering after 10 years because of the drama. Swimming was such a goo
d sport for me because it was a wonderful stress reliever. If I had a bad day, I would go to practice and take it out on the water and just push myself. I made a lot of friends from it and got closer to others. It was amaz ing and I am definitely going to miss it.
I also have been singing since I could talk. Singing and music have always been my life. I think I am a good singer, as do many others. Throughout high school I was part of Show Choir, Chamber Choir, Concert Choir, and Honors Music. I made many friends doing what I love and what I am good at.

RIP Mr. Webster

Last night we lost a member of our community. He was a very loved man, as is his family. Charles Webster died in a crash at Oxford Plains Speedway around 7:30 last night. He has a wonderful family, whom my prayers go out to. Cassie Webster is his wonderful daughter who I have been in choir with the past few years. She is my family, we have an inside joke where she is my daughter and I am her mom. I talked to her this morning and as of right now she is doing alright and trying to be strong. My prayers go out to the Webster family in this time of need.

While we are on the subject of death and dying, I would like to pay my respects to the many friends I have lost over the past few years. Many of them were known and loved and it seems only right to give them the remembrance they deserve as well.
On November 17th 2007 we lost a great friend, Alex Joseph Beggs. He died from alcohol poisoning. It was a tragic loss for many, but it his me especially hard. See, Adam was at a party when he passed away. He had asked me the day before if I wanted to join him. I passed because I was not really into the party scene and I didn't want to get in trouble. He is greatly missed each and every day by so many. His Myspace always has new comments from his friends to let him know how much he is missed.

On May 30th, 2008, we lost our friend Crystal Cunningham to a car accident. I did not know her long, but I met her while our good friend, Liza, was in the hospital. She was by Liza's side the whole time I was, and was such a great person. When we met, she would send me comment thanking me for being there when she needed someone to talk to. The cause of the accident could have been prevented. Unfortunately she was just being a teenager, she jumped in her car angry, and went for a ride to clear her head. This tragedy made me realize that being behind the wheel while angry is not a good idea. We miss her, her smile, her laugh, everything about her.

On March 17, 2008 A very good friend, Liza Cote, lost her precious son, Aiden Allen Tozier. She was 5 months pregnant with Aiden when I got a horrible phone call at 430 AM. Liza was bleeding and didn't know why. Long story short, the doctor said there was no way they could save the baby because she was going into labor and it was too soon. My beautiful friend had a still birth. We were all devastated, but Liza and Mack made the best of it. We all held Aiden in our arms before we left. He would be just about a year old now if he had been born on time. We love you Liza, Mack, and Aiden.

On March 14, 2007, Dakota Jean Cunneen took her own life. I found out in the middle of my computer class when my friend got a phone call from his mom. I met Dakota through an old boyfriend, because they were very close friends. Her loss hit all of her friends, especially her boyfriend, Alex, very hard. There is nothing worse than losing someone you love to suicide. Alex's Myspace still has her face all over it, and to this day he blames himself. The small community of Mechanic Falls misses her greatly as do her many other friends.

On December 2, 2006, we lost Ryan Dale Moore, to a terrible car accident. Ryan fell asleep at the wheel while driving at night and crashed his car. He was my friends ex boyfriend, so many of us knew him well. He was sweet and kind, and went to church every Sunday without fail. His school had a memorial for him and made a basketball jersey for him and put it on the wall. He is loved and missed greatly by all of his friends and family.

On April 5, 2006 I turned 15 years old. On April 5, 2006 I also lost a close and dear friend. Kenneth Mark Jellison died in a tragic car accident. He was in the car with his friend, Kyle Karkos. Kyle was driving and they slid on some ice and hit a pole. To this day the pole has people's signatures and many times people leave flowers there. Some think they may have been racing, but Kyle says they were not. The next day at school was awful, and we had a moment of silence for him. He was 2 months away from graduation. At graduation they had a chair with his picture on it, and his name was read first. He is loved and missed by everyone.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

New At This

Ok, So I have NO idea what I am doing! But I said once I got a laptop I would start blogging, so I guess we'll see how this goes. Since I have no internet at home, I will not be able to post much until I start school in August but I figured I would try it out before then. Bare with me and help me out!