GET ME OUT OF THIS ROOM!

I am sick of being in here! It is awful! Spring vacation number one starts Friday, I can't wait to go home and be around people that care about me.

Tonight is going to be a busy night. I have class 230-330, tumbling 430-6ish, practice 7-9, then studying my tush off with Lyndsay for our Ecology test tomorrow.

I have slept so much the past few days, why am I still so tired? Ughhhh I am simply drained.

Fake A Smile...

That is what I have been doing today. I woke up sick, like, super sick. I think it may be because of stress and the fact that I tossed and turned all night. I didn't even leave my room today except to go to dinner. I need to get off my butt, good thing I have cheering tonight....and thank God for Jordyn, she has been trying so hard to keep me positive.

I have decided that once the cupcakes my Memere made me are gone it is time to eat healthy, work out, and get in better shape. If CJ is working his tush off I feel that I should be too! He has already started working hard and training hard so it is time for me to step up and do the same.

I just hope that the WHOLE Twomey family knows, I am here for you all. I love you all, and I hope that you guys will talk to me when you need someone to lean on....you guys really are family to me....Keep your chins up, I sure am trying, we can get through this, but only if we pull together.

Our Last Picture....

for 14 months. It was a very sad "see you later" but I know that everyone is supporting CJ and I am no exception. I am so proud of my babe :)

4 Days...

I am exhausted, hungry, and sore. I got my butt kicked by cheering tonight. I have marks everywhere and really hurt my knee but it was a pretty successful practice overall. We got approved for a full budget, I am SO excited! Mats and Uniforms here we come!

The days are going by quickly and I am getting more and more nervous...I still can't believe what is happening right now....I never thought that I would see this day. I am afraid I won't be able to say goodbye. I want to see him board the plane but right now it is looking like that is not going to happen :( *sigh* I hope things work out but the way this year has been going who freaking knows...

I love you boo, the kids are gonna miss you<3

6 Days

This weekend hold memories that I will forever keep. 6 days and I have to say see you later to the love of my life. To see the pics from this weekend check out Hallie's blog at Wonderful World of Wieners to see CJ's Deployment Party Pictures, no sense of us both posting them :)

Today, while I was in class, CJ decided to rearrange my room for me and surprise me with it. I LOVE IT! It is so much more roomy now and it has his touch and I simply adore it. How awesome of a guy is he?!?!?

Yesterday we went to the Boston Museum of Science with his pen pal (FROM CALIFORNIA!!) and we went to the Harry Potter exhibit. Coolest day ever? I think so! CJ bought me a quill and ink set that is so freaking awesome! He also got us a chocolate frog to snack on :)

I don't care how horrendous my make up looks in this picture, I adore it, and it makes me happy every time I see it. So rag on it if you wish but I love it and nobody can make me think otherwise!

What An Emotional Day

Today has been rough. I have been in bed all day, besides class, and I just can't seem to shake this feeling that I was to just burst into tears. I know what is causing it, but there is no way for me t eliminate the problem. It is what it is and none of us can control it. I am stressed out, hardcore. I am taking it out on everyone. I just want to run, away, and not come back for a very long time. I want to hide under my blankets for 14 months. But in the end, what good will all of that do? It won't keep him here, it won't help him when he is gone.

I need to perk up, be happy, or at least fake a smile. I need to get my head ready for this, and also my heart. I have been sick to my stomach for days and it is starting to effect the rest of my body. This weekend is it, for a very long time, and I am terrified. I said goodbye before, but not for this. Not for this long. My hands have gotten shaky, my body has gotten weak, my back feels like a wooden board, and sleep has been little to non existent. Pray. Pray for him, pray for me, pray for his family, pray for everyone over there. Everyone needs it.

I love you. You mean the world to me. This is going to be so very hard, but I know that we are both so strong and we can get through this and overcome it. Get your head on straight, get ready for it, fight the fight and come home. My arms will be waiting to hold you.

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