Not Impressed

So, I emailed my mother the other day, at her home email, and she did not respond. I mean really, I emailed her pictures of my dorm and let her know how I was doing, and yet nothing. That really upsets me. She is my mother! Why can't she take the time to appreciate how far I have come in life?? We have been through so much, from crap when I was born with my father, to me being depressed, and yet I still made it to college, on my own, and I am paying for it, by myself. It just seems to me that she should be somewhat proud.

Am I being selfish? I wish I had the kind of mother-daughter relationship my Memere and my Aunt have. Bot no, of course not. I want my mommy and daddy. I know none of my other posts have really been all that serious, but tonight, I am having a pity party. I am hurt, I am upset, and I just wish that my PARENTS would show that they give a damn about me and my accomplishments. I appreciate everything my aunt and memere have done for me, but it is not the same as having your parents. I may sound selfish right now but frankly I really do not care.

Thank you to those of you who have supported me. My memere, my aunt, my friends, my grandparents, CJ, CJ's family, Diane, Rolande, all of you have made things easier on me and you all mean the world to me. I love you.

Farmington Dunkin Donuts

Today was my first day working at my new job at the downtown Dunkin Donuts in Farmington. I was so nervous to just walk in there and work like I knew what I was doing, well, I knew what I was doing but I didn't know anyone and I felt awkward. I worked from 12-6 and have been in my dorm alone since, my roommate is out with her friend or something.


I am exhausted, honestly, I am not sure why, but college has just made me so tired! All the time! No matter how much I sleep! Oh well whatever, what can you do right?


Wow so I just realized I never put any pictures of my room up, so here goes!

White Water Rafting Pictures

Man did we have fun! I was terrified at first but it was such an amazing time!

12 Minute Swim

SOOOO today was pretty bad. I went to bed in a lot of pain last night, both physical and mental, around 11-11:30 (thank you Tylenol PM). I woke up at 3:30 this morning to find my room empty. No roommate, nothing. Of course I panicked, hello we are in college lord only knows what she could have been up to. I found out she was upstairs with some friends, AT 3:30!!!!!! So her and her friend stumble in around 4am and her friend proceeds to laugh and giggle as loud as can be. I was NOT impressed. This morning I dragged myself out of bed and when I got to math class I kept nodding off. You know what I mean, head resting on your hand just resting your eyes when your head slips and jerks you awake. Oh yeah, it was brutal.

After my first two classes I go back to the room to nap before my swimming class, just as I am falling asleep a BANG BANG BANG on the door wakes me up! Who might it be? Oh, the maintenance man......coming to fix our door...of course....while I am sleeping. So I dragged myself out of bed and let him in. By then it is too late for any sleep so I say screw it and get ready.

I head out to swimming and realize oh sh*t I forgot my keys. I proceed to call my roommate about 400 times, with no answer. OF COURSE! My friend says I can wait in his room when we get out, thankfully. So while in my swimming class, we start out by doing 80 crunches. Not too bad, except they break my effing neck!! After we were done we got the pleasure of doing a 12 minute swim; how many laps could we do in that time. Of course being a swimmer I thought that would be cake. Of course not, my shoulder decides today will be the day it will flare up and lock up. THANK YOU SHOULDER! *sigh* It has been quite the day, and it is only 4:30. Please God let tonight go well!

Geography

This morning I attended my First Year Seminar class. It is about soldiers and their war experiences, which I think will be interesting and I also think it will be rough. Since CJ was in the Air Force and all, thinking about what he could have possibly had to do, it scares me. So OF COURSE guess who is in that class? Oh the lovely girl I wrote about yesterday, of course a class I am going to get emotional in, she is in it. Whatever. We got our first assignment, we had to write a 4-5 page paper about a significant moment. I like mine :)

So there is a wonderful friend of mine who would like me to give him some recognition. He began his blog because of me and if you would like to check it out you can click here He is WONDERFUL and is getting ready to give up on blogging because no one is following him =[

I also just need to say, to my wonderful boyfriend, I LOVE YOU, and remember what Jakob told you. Things can only go up :) See you soon my love<3

Whoops! I called this post Geography I should talk about it! It is SO LAME! The teacher is monotone and thinks he is hilarious but he is not! He is boring! This class is going to suck royally....blaaaah!

Girls Are Just SO Lovely

I woke up this morning at 6:45 am, got dressed, went to breakfast, went to my first class. As I go to sit down in my class, math, I notice this peachy girl sitting behind me. Someone who hates me for no reason at all. As soon as she notices me, she whips out her cell phone and begins to text ANOTHER peachy girl who shall remain nameless because I am sure she will see this since she is kind of a crazy stalker, but no big :) So I ignore her throughout class and go back to my dorm.

I attend my second class, it was somewhat boring but hey, no haters, so I can't complain too much. after this class is over, I go back to my dorm , talk to CJ on webcam for a little bit, and get ready for my third and final class of the day:gym. I walk into the gym where we are all meeting and sit down. No sooner does 5 minutes go by and I happen to look behind me. Guess who's there? Oh yeah, peachy girl number 1. I get to swim with her...Yay! There goes MY love for the pool. I don't mean to be a snob, but really now, must I get stuck with immature, stupid girls all the time?

Basically the short version is I love CJ, CJ loves me AAAANNNNNDDDDD the world needs to just accept it. Mkay :)

Gummy Frogs

So for some strange reason, my wonderful boyfriend loves these weird, green, gummy frogs. Yep, not worms or bears, frogs. He always wants them and gets them whenever possible.

So a few weeks ago, we stumbled upon a website and he looked to see if they had any gummy frogs on there. Sure enough, they had a five pound bag of them. Me, being the kinda, generous, living girlfriend that I am, waited for him to leave for work one night, and grabbed my debit card and his address and ordered him a bag. Hey, it is the least I could do for him putting up with me for this long =p I got a phone call from him today, because he got it, and it sounded as if his smile was wider than his face. It made me feel very good inside.


In other news, college is going great, classes start tomorrow and we still have the bombest room on campus, and I am getting along with nearly everyone. Of course there are a few select girls I could do without but hey, I am not going to let them ruin my time.
I miss everyone! I love you all too!
If anyone wants to write or maybe send this wonderful girl a care package, the address is:
Danielle Dubois
366 Dakin Hall
Farmington, ME 04938